Stimpy
03-11-2010, 09:41 AM
1stly i dunno what ya would call this? buut to me it's agony. well if everyone here remembers awhile back QUITE awhile back going back a couple pages here. it's been a couple years really. i asked for some advice on a woman that i've been in love with for a long time. now i don't really feel like going back & looking through the pages here. soo bear in mind i forget what i asked & what the response was.
anyways, since than in the past couple years, she had broken up with the guy she was with. spent a year alone. we ran into his parents one day 2 years ago at best buys. & she in short was in shock as i was that we ran back into them. to keep it short here. she told them to have him give her a call sometime. than a week or so later she gives me a call & said how there's a god that she's got a date & etc.. & basically treated me like i'm nothing. not even considering how i would feel about it. & so
on. i didn't ask who it was. i got mad, because on the way she said it. & my mom actually went at her this is 2 years ago. said if she just wanted to be friends than why was she acting like she didn't want that? no response on that one. he he for that i am grateful for my mom for letting her have it. he he. anyways. next day she wrote me to keep this short & said you didn't even ask who it was with? it was her ex. i lost it, i wrote her a long ass e-mail & basically told her how cruel she was cuz of the way she told me. i also got a good poem out of it. an extremly dark one yet. :) soo that's the only good thing out of it. my best work.
anyways. i simply asked in the e-mail nobody asked you for a date eh?BULL! to keep it clean. i asked what am i chopped liver? & i forget what all i ended up saying to her. in short i snapped & i stopped seeing her altogether. she wrote me back a couple months later surprising me honestly. & said i said some very hurtful things & that she understood. soo i said good i'm glad she was hurt by them.
it may have taken me a long time for this to happen to me. buut even I have my limits ya know?
anyways, she informed me last october she moved into his house with him. i wasn't surprised. we were still keeping touch viva e-mail. & that's pretty much it. i was NOT calling her anymore. nor seeing her. in fact i haven't seen her sine Jan. of last year when she came over.
anyways, she wrote me last nite & told me she's NOW married to the guy & is also knocked up. i'm guessing that's why they married. that part surprised me. the part of her being knocked up. didn't actually surprise me. so now i'm prolly going to break full contact with her. cause of all this. i did my best of a bad situation. buut one thing i am going to do is at least let her know. i'm NOT inhuman.
do i wish her the best? HELL NO! of all the crap she put me through no i don't wish her the best.
as you can see i'm EXTREMELY & VERY pissed off about all this & Upset as well. as you can see putting it that way typing it i mean. even that didn't come out right. anyways, i've got a LOT OF ANGER in me at the moment. buut i don't plan on going off on anyone in my life. i am really trying NOT to do that. i had a break up when i was 19. & i did NOT handle it VERY WELL at all. & basically i snapped & got into a LOT of trouble at school.& almost the law actually.
thankfully i don't have a record. soo i don' t want to go down that route again. i'm more open to how i feel than i was back than. which is a VAST improvement don't you think? anyways, i plan on writing an EXTREMLY VERY DARK Poem about it. to ya know VENT! i have to do it SOMEHOW ya know?
anyways, i have been also trying to get over her as well. & i've also been depressed a LOT as of late & i wondered why? my spidey senses were tingling & i just didn't know why? anyways, you may be asking where my question in buried in all this ? good point? has anyone here ever gone through crap like this? & how did you handle it without losing your sanity & NOT doing anything stupid or against the law? i also had to shots of alke of course. THAT FELT great to be honest. hehe
soo please help a guy out on handling this maturely. & for helping a guy out keep his digitnity & sanity as well. i just HAVE to vent about it ya know? can you really blame me? now the dude she married doesn't beat her or anything like that. buut he at one time did hack into her e-mails her & delete them & even gave me a virus on my puter. anyways before this gets ANY Longer than i want it to be i'll leave now. nite & thank you for your help.
anyways, since than in the past couple years, she had broken up with the guy she was with. spent a year alone. we ran into his parents one day 2 years ago at best buys. & she in short was in shock as i was that we ran back into them. to keep it short here. she told them to have him give her a call sometime. than a week or so later she gives me a call & said how there's a god that she's got a date & etc.. & basically treated me like i'm nothing. not even considering how i would feel about it. & so
on. i didn't ask who it was. i got mad, because on the way she said it. & my mom actually went at her this is 2 years ago. said if she just wanted to be friends than why was she acting like she didn't want that? no response on that one. he he for that i am grateful for my mom for letting her have it. he he. anyways. next day she wrote me to keep this short & said you didn't even ask who it was with? it was her ex. i lost it, i wrote her a long ass e-mail & basically told her how cruel she was cuz of the way she told me. i also got a good poem out of it. an extremly dark one yet. :) soo that's the only good thing out of it. my best work.
anyways. i simply asked in the e-mail nobody asked you for a date eh?BULL! to keep it clean. i asked what am i chopped liver? & i forget what all i ended up saying to her. in short i snapped & i stopped seeing her altogether. she wrote me back a couple months later surprising me honestly. & said i said some very hurtful things & that she understood. soo i said good i'm glad she was hurt by them.
it may have taken me a long time for this to happen to me. buut even I have my limits ya know?
anyways, she informed me last october she moved into his house with him. i wasn't surprised. we were still keeping touch viva e-mail. & that's pretty much it. i was NOT calling her anymore. nor seeing her. in fact i haven't seen her sine Jan. of last year when she came over.
anyways, she wrote me last nite & told me she's NOW married to the guy & is also knocked up. i'm guessing that's why they married. that part surprised me. the part of her being knocked up. didn't actually surprise me. so now i'm prolly going to break full contact with her. cause of all this. i did my best of a bad situation. buut one thing i am going to do is at least let her know. i'm NOT inhuman.
do i wish her the best? HELL NO! of all the crap she put me through no i don't wish her the best.
as you can see i'm EXTREMELY & VERY pissed off about all this & Upset as well. as you can see putting it that way typing it i mean. even that didn't come out right. anyways, i've got a LOT OF ANGER in me at the moment. buut i don't plan on going off on anyone in my life. i am really trying NOT to do that. i had a break up when i was 19. & i did NOT handle it VERY WELL at all. & basically i snapped & got into a LOT of trouble at school.& almost the law actually.
thankfully i don't have a record. soo i don' t want to go down that route again. i'm more open to how i feel than i was back than. which is a VAST improvement don't you think? anyways, i plan on writing an EXTREMLY VERY DARK Poem about it. to ya know VENT! i have to do it SOMEHOW ya know?
anyways, i have been also trying to get over her as well. & i've also been depressed a LOT as of late & i wondered why? my spidey senses were tingling & i just didn't know why? anyways, you may be asking where my question in buried in all this ? good point? has anyone here ever gone through crap like this? & how did you handle it without losing your sanity & NOT doing anything stupid or against the law? i also had to shots of alke of course. THAT FELT great to be honest. hehe
soo please help a guy out on handling this maturely. & for helping a guy out keep his digitnity & sanity as well. i just HAVE to vent about it ya know? can you really blame me? now the dude she married doesn't beat her or anything like that. buut he at one time did hack into her e-mails her & delete them & even gave me a virus on my puter. anyways before this gets ANY Longer than i want it to be i'll leave now. nite & thank you for your help.